CURRENTLY

• Constantly repeating to myself 'You are the luckiest girl in the world' while listening to Eddie Vedder Better Days in hopes I'd believe in it.
• Wondering if someone can forget how to be happy?
• Electronics and technology in my residence exclaimed war. We are just people, we could never win.
• Having an intimate relationship with my remote, so much for my love and sex life. Hoping for better days.
• Alienating myself.
• Shutting myself from, i think, good people.
• Being a good person.
• Summer is over, and somehow, feeling more comfortable and in tune with the new weather.
• Finally TV shows' season started. Football too.
• Watching news.
• Rereading this...so much for my Radical Self Project. I like being sad-there is no other explanation.
• Not sleeping through the night, at all!
• Want to rearrange my bedroom and finally put the desk under the window-don't feel like moving anything :)
• You know how in the movies, when girls are sad, they have a movie they like to watch over and over and over again, eg. 'Dirty Dancing', well, i have found mine. And is...wait for it...'Eat, Pray, Love'- and that is basically what I feel like doing, except I am not hungry and concept of praying is foreign to me.
• Wondering if I will ever have the capacity to love the whole world.
• Feeling, in some screwed up way, unworthy. Maybe if I got my 8 hours of sleep, would just feel rested. You never no until you try it.
• So want to do some epic shit.
• Having the worst best friend ever!
• Thinking too much, feeling too much.