TODAY'S GREATEST LOVE STORY

To be totally sincere,

I want to celebrate my life & make an exhibition out of my existence. I want people to know I am here and about me. Otherwise I'd be just be taking up space & wasting air. That is not fair to this plant nor to the confusing product of the process that is me.

I want to eat well & cheaply, sleep well & warm together alone and love. I want to love the wind with its desired directions no matter if I am ready for the storm. I do not want to know when and how fast I will hit the ground or will I forever and a day stay in love. I want to listen to good music whether my neighbors like it or not. I know that whoever comes along is the right person, whatever happens is the only thing that could possibly happen, whenever it starts its the right time & when its over its over. I also know that sex is easy but I want to be romantic with you. I want to be around books. I do not know why I like you and I don't care. I know I am sapiosexual. I do not fight fair, I fight to win. I am not what happened to me, I am who I choose to be. I have no fear of depths, I have a fear of shallow living. I know I am not mad because I am able to communicate my ideas. My flash is a great poem to the universe and my lover. Even if you cannot see, there is a great garden inside me. I still find it strange how I can be anything at all. I also found out that I do not need to be perfect so I can be good now. I do not shrink from fantastic.

My existence is incredible and today I am a TIGER, be AFRAID!

LA BELLA VITA

This world is filled with greyness, negativity, war, tears, sadness, people who try to bring you down just because. With break ups and heartaches, also with first kisses. But you can always stray from it, refuse to dwell on the negative and choose to look at positive, choose HAPPY each morning, and SERENITY each evening. You can decide what mood you want to be because you are in charge of your feelings and those who try to mess with you, walk out of the room. Choose to Love and Respect yourself above all else. Smile and laugh whenever possible. Wear colour and glitter dresses, wear what makes you happy. Commit to live up to the spirit that is you. You do not need money, you don't need another, just you! The beautiful, MEGA amazing and glorious you.

Here are some things you can write down and remind yourself that this wonderful blue planet is full or little wonders and that there is beauty everywhere if you want to see it and acknowledge it. There is so much to celebrate and be happy about. Magic is all around, embrace it!

Girls that laugh are the prettiest * Be silly, be honest, be kind * I am SO happy * I am the luckiest girl in the world * Live * Love * Laugh * Sing * And be Happy * Have strength, dignity and laugh * You are worth it! * Each day its a new opportunity, fresh start, brand new 24h to do exactly what you please * Remind yourself daily that you are absolutely, completely & totally perfect * Remember that Monday means MY DAY-indulge in it * Make pretty things and get enough sleep * Never stop dreaming and plan for a miracle * On Wednesdays wear pink * Do more of what makes you happy * Always wear your invisible crown * What goes around comes around * Sea, Air & Sun * Fight boredom with creativity * Daydream * Look out for the colour not only at down and twilight *Go to a Luna Park and win yourself a unicorn * Every girl is a super hero sometimes * Anchor yourself to something special * Decide once and for all to have an extraordinary life * Wake up and live * Make your own kind of happiness * Nothing is wrong if it feels good * Draw * Being free has nothing to do with being alone * Ask FATE to dance * Eat well & travel often * Make pancakes & bake cupcakes for no reason * Today be excited about everything * Indulge your imagination * Hold yourself to the standard of grace not perfection *  Give thanks * Celebrate everything * Have a Disneyland in your heart * If today goes well go and get some ice-cream

S - set small goals that are leading up to a big one
E - exercise your creativity
L- love yourself because you're worth it
F - face your fears

R - rest. relax & reward yourself
E - eat right, your body deserves it
S - smile & laugh whenever you can
P - practise patience & compassion
E - enjoy the little things
C - create something you're proud of
T - tell yourself you are strong because you can make through this.

I AM NOT SORRY

Dyana Valentine spoke on TED

'We created this automatic language, this culture of apology that isn't really about apologizing for what we are doing, it seems to be not related to language. We've got to this place where 'sorry' sometimes means 'please', sometimes it equals 'thank you', 'sorry'- 'excuse me'. I am interested in WHY we are actually sorry.'

I AM NOT SORRY FOR:

I am not sorry for loving myself. For spoiling myself. For wanting only the best. For my sleeping habits and snooze. For my mood swings because I am passionate about things. I am not sorry for my passions. I am not sorry for inhaling chocolate bars. For liking my food with wee too much salt on it. For smoking. For loving like no other. I am not sorry for my writing. For being afraid. For not wanting to sleep alone. I am not sorry for wanting to be treated like a princess. I am not sorry for the time I need to waste and just be lazy. I am not sorry for believing in magic and happy endings. I am not sorry for the way my friends are. I am not sorry for my likes/dislikes and interests. I am not sorry for needing intellectual conversations to feed my soul with. I am not sorry for yelling and grammatical mistakes I make then. Or talking too loud in public. I am not sorry for all the elephants, gardens and chaos in my head. I am not sorry for my art. I am not sorry for my humour, sarcasm and cynicism. I am not sorry for not wanting to know how to get out of bed. I am not sorry  for being selfish. I am not sorry for being honest. I am not sorry for showing affection outside bedroom. I am not sorry for all the foods I don't like. I am not sorry for drinking only sparkling water. I am not sorry for my age and my moments. I am not sorry if I am too much. I am not sorry for saying NO. I am not sorry for my heart wanting what it wants. I am not sorry for decisions I made for I would not be me here. I am not sorry for loving you. I AM NOT SORRY THAT I AM!

What are you not sorry for?

RADICAL SELF LOVE HOMEWORK

I love the fact that I am human. I love that I can feel. I love that there are boys that I can fall in love with, even if feelings make me dull. I love that I can be happy and sad, sometimes at the same time. I love my flaws, I think that is why I am me, unique and beautiful. I love the flaws in others too, it is the detail. I love that I am a mammal, a female mammal for that matter. I love that I have muscles to smile with and walk with, ride a bicycle too,dance. I love my green eyes that can look up and be intimidated by how big the sky is. Appreciate the painting and watch a butterfly dance in the air. I love my arms that can hug another.I love my hands that I can write with. I love my heart that is capable of expansion each time I am in love. I love my skull that protects my thoughts, my happy places and my secrets. I love my skin that gets tanned in the summer and that can feel the tickles of a feather, softness of the silk, warmth of wool and another human touch. I love my lips that I can kiss with.  I love the sound when I laugh and the way my eyes narrow in the process. I love that I can miss another and me too. I love that I am being cared for and that I can care, nurture another living thing. I love that I have to sleep, as I evolve even when I am sleeping. I love that brain can be conscious of the wonderful surroundings and that can dream too. I love that I need water and that I can swim in water too. I love my nose for I can smell the flowers. I love my ears with which I can hear all the mighty sounds and sport the earings. I love my thumbs that enable me to hold a book. I love my tongue that lets me express, and say 'Good Morning', 'Have a fancy day', 'I love you', 'Fuck you' and 'Thank you'. I love my tears and how they taste. I love my taste buds that allow me devour Nutella. I love my hair that plays with the wind. I love my collarbones, my cheekbones, my hips.

What do you love about yourself?

TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING CAN TRULY BE WONDERFUL

Since Mr is away from the rock, away from me and our bed. Away for St. Valentine's I decided to embrace Gala's 'Fabulous February'. With a passion of a poet and a precision of a scientist, I'll indulge into Radical Self Love month. Which, to be perfectly honest, should be every month and every day should be my birthday, except for weekends which should be experienced with nothing less than Xmasy joy, out loud singing and insane dancing. Celebrate.

Care to join?

Feeling alight. I am my own source, Ms Muse. Coffee may bring me up but nothing can bring me down. When this theorem fails to provide the happy thoughts I'd go anywhere by the means of daydream travel. Paris? Scrolling through the city veins wearing my invisible crown. Or simply surrender my mind and body to ZZzzz monster.

I've got everything! I've got me love, I've got me dog and I've got me library.

Surprise, devour, bite off more than I can chew leaving all the rest to be rust and stardust.

I give you kisses and virtually imaginable heart-shaped pink balloons.

DO YOU WANT THE TRUTH OR SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL?

THE BEAUTIFUL:

In the previous post I wrote down the things I appreciate. A note to self to take a moment and just be grateful. To look at the positive and be thankful. It should be done more often. It certainly made me stop complaining for a whole day. And that’s the new personal high score.

Apart from discovering the value in little things, I made a pinky promise to dispose and distance myself from the things and people that I am uncomfortable around. Stress-realize from everything that has no purpose, that is useless, old and no need for. From people who do not treat me the way I see it fit and space myself out from the negative energy and thoughts.

Can’t wait to shift my wardrobe for the next season and put away all the cloths I would never wear again or that I keep for ‘maybe needing one day‘ -that day never comes. Put them in a bag and give them to charity like every year. Make somebody else happy. Find some money in a coat or two.

The whole point of this is to get rid of the old meaningless crap and make space for new, interesting things that are yet to come. Allowing a gap in my life for better things to fall into. Surround myself with necessities and cherish the philosophy of 'less is more'. And isn’t that beautiful?

THE TRUTH:

He lied to me.

I HEART...

So, my sweet little lemon drops, first thing I decided to do on my project in hopes of being very very happy, is to stop and stay still for a while. Take some time of my not so busy day and look at the all good things that we just take for granted.

Here is what I heart:

• Friendly cashiers
• A clean public toilet
• Making someone who looks sad smile
• Opening a brand new book
• My favorite song on replay
• Positive feedback on articles I worked hard on
• A hot shower after a long day
• Looking through old photographs
• Sleeping at midnight waking at noon
• Long road trip at night
• Holding doors for strangers, who say 'thanks'
• Finding out that a person feels the same way I do
• Making a perfect signature
• Old couples
• Some telling me a secret. Just me
• Finally understanding something
• A simple compliment from a stranger
• Laughing until my stomach hurts
• The smell after it rains
• Sleeping on clean sheets
• The first swim of the summer
• Just you and me. No time
• The originality of people's handwriting
• When someone remembers things I said
• Cute sneezes
• People who remember me after meeting me only once
• When the first text I see is prom the person I love
• Hugs from behind
• Recalling good memories with friends
• Songs that remind me of a special person/event
• The sound of little kid's uncontrollable laughter
• Waking up with perfect hair
• Holding hands
• Seeing someone's face light up when I give them a gift
• Kisses on the forehead
• Singing along to the car radio
• Singing my heart out on a concert
• When my plans didn't work out, but my day turned out great anyway
• Playground swings
• Looking at the water droplets travel across a car window
• When his family loves me
• Star-gazing
• Tight, meaningful hugs
• That one person that knows me better than myself
• When my bangs actually corporate with me
• Knowing that I am loved
• Nutella
• Getting new cloths
• Getting mail
• Kept pinky promises
• Being missed
• The cold side of the pillow
• The smell of freshly cut grass
• Finishing a good book
• Wearing his cloths
• Inside jokes
• Cuddling
• Silence that isn't awkward
• Being awake while everyone else is asleep
• Seeing my loved one smile knowing I put it there
• Marathons of my favorite shows
• Lazy afternoons
• Getting backed up in an argument
• Hearing my favorite song on the radio
• Peeing after holding it in for a loooong time
• Finding money in the last season's cloths
• Singing in the shower
• Never ending conversations
• Finding something I lost long time ago
• A pan that works really well
• A smell of a new book
• Songs that always make me wonna dance
• Deep conversations with my best friend
• Christmas lights at night
• Being home alone
• Jeans that fit perfectly
• Long naps
• Hearing I was in someone's dream
• Being in a fantastic mood, just because
• Waking up and realizing I have more time to sleep
• When my favorite team wins
• Biting a crisp apple
• Hellos
• People who treat their parents lovingly
• Correct grammar
• Taking my bra off at the end of the day
• The moment I realize my period is over
• Nicknames
• The smell of just shampood hair
• The sound of a perfect high-five
• Proving a smart person wrong
• When me and my best friend say the same thing at the same time
• Waking up and remembering my dream
• Drinking cold water when I'm really thirsty
• Giving random acts of kindness
• Free stuff
• Fresh air
• A perfect cup of coffee
• When some tells me I smell nice
• Long lasting nail polish
• When the butter melts on my toast
• Just shaved legs
• Spontaneous adventures
• When he smiles at me
• When the week goes by very fast
• Accents
• A clean room
• Taking high heels at the end of the day
• Not being able to finish a sentence because I'm laughing so hard about the ending
• Dresses with pockets
• Guys who smell good
• Wearing my pajamas whole day
• Perfect shower temperature
• Spotless, bruise-free bananas
• Handwritten letters
• Crossing things off my to-do list
• Breakfast in bed
• Contagious laughter
• Smiling in the middle of a kiss
• When someone understand my humor
• Writing on a first page of a note-book
• When person's laugh is funnier than the joke
• Achieving perfect milk-cereal ratio
• Overhearing someone saying nice things about me
• Waking up and not being tired
• Sleeping in my bed after being away
• When the weather feels just right
• The excitement of my pat when I come home
• The moment when I find a comfortable sleeping position
• Twisting the lid of a jar when no one else was able to
• Taking a perfect picture
• The smell of old books
• When people enjoy the food I make
• Letting chocolate melt in my mouth
• When I catch someone cute staring at me
• The first shower after a hair-cut
• When the last item in the store is my size
• When other families treat me as a member
• Arriving at the bus stop right on time
• Stranger telling me I have beautiful eyes
• Feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin
• The moment I realize the hiccups are gone
• When someone texts back instantly
• Not wearing make-up and being able to rub my eyes
• Logging onto Facebook on my birthday
• When I see my food coming in a restaurant
• Catching something just before it hits the ground

And many many more things we should appreciate. Stand still, breath in and remember how fortunate we are. Find joy in simple things.

For more little things.

RADICAL SELF LOVE PROJECT

What happens when you are ready to change? When you actually feel it in the air? Is it the breeze signalling the shift of the seasons or you are sick and tired of being lonely and unhappy? Sick of depending on suitors and friends to make your day and lift you up.

Since I am funemployed I decided to work full-time on myself. I decided to be happy! I know, easier said than done. But I have been down down down, the only way is up up up.

Truth to be told, I am not yet sure how this is going to go down, but I am positive and passionate about it. I decided to be extremely happy, so happy that my friends cannot stand me. I decided to be a lullaby to the sunset, a love letter to the universe, an antidote to the grey world around us.

I am not going to complain anymore, but solely look at the positive. Even if no body exclaims his love to me, I am going to love and be in love. I am going to smile to strangers, I am going to say ‘thank you‘ and mean it. I am going to dress up for myself. Take bubble baths with the tiara on. I am going to take myself on dates. I am going to listen to the music that lifts me up only. I am going to dance like there is no tomorrow. I am going to collect compliments. I am going to say ‘Yes’. I am going to eat caviar and laugh! I am going to love myself. I am going to respect myself. I am going to decide what is going to be the theme of my life and live by it.

I am going to be happy! Show my teeth!

‘The question isn’t who is going to let me, it’s who is going to stop me!’ (Ayn Rand)

source: galadarling