11 COMMANDMENTS

1. Work on one thing at a time.
2. Start no more new books, add no more new material to 'Black Spring'
3. Don't be nervous. Work calmly, joyously, recklessly on whatever is in hand.
4. Work according to Program and not according to mood. Stop at the appointed time.
5. When you can't create you can work.
6. Cement a little every day, rather than add new fertilizers.
7. Keep human! See people, go places, drink if you feel like.
8. Don't be a drought-horse! Work with pleasure only.
9. Discard the Program when you feel like it- but go back to it the next day. Concentrate. Narrow down. Exclude. 
10. Forget the books you want to write. Think only of the book you are writing.
11. Write first and always. Painting, music, friends, cinema, all these come afterwards. 

WORK  SCHEDULE

1932-1933

By  Henry Miller Miscellanea  

THE MOUTH AND THE KNIFE

'If you cut your hair, you can travel Europe.'

I woke up instantly.

Aia came into my dream, out of nowhere, and said the above. My eyes wide open, I turned my head and there lies my man, a complete work of art-'I can't just go to Europe'.

What is it that I need to let go off?

Chocolate, Cigarettes, apparently Long Hair, Warm, Good Days and sunny Tuesdays are just some of my addictions and habits. Aia meant, or I think she did, if I manage to get rid of one-ain't no stopping us now.

I wish I knew how to leave pieces of myself behind in order to feel the sun and rain fully. If I obtained something already, that is not me anymore, for I grew and deepened for that much, hence I don't need it anymore as it is now part of who I was. So, hanging onto what exactly? For me to fully comprehend and understand this is like helping a Retard to know God.

No, I do not want to become a mightier self, don't want to control me, I want to be free and do as I please. Though, Aia's 'message'/ 'order'/ 'advice' is hanging above me head in a shape of a green question mark. Don't know where the green colour came from?!

...Maybe if I just colour my hair? Nope, as I am sure mummy and daddy gave me this colour to match my eyes. Or just cut it a little bit? Maybe...

Universe will give me an answer in matter or some time and that would be exactly what I need. Whatever the answer would be, am just glad that I got to question and reflect, and self-obsess a bit more. The doubts over my addiction come knocking on every locked door.