When Pandora opened her box she let out all the things except one. The one that is even more dangerous than lust and evil. The one that can keep you prolonging the torments of life. The one that can torture you. The one that can keep you going. The one that can style your day.
The definition of 'the one' is, a belief in a positive outcome and it answers to the name 'HOPE'.
Be careful of what you wish for! The lesson I learned, the lesson which I would be remembered every time I have hope.
I was praying, yearning, for to get a normal office job with office hours, from 8am-5pm. Dreamed of a day when I'll have to dress up smart, put make up in the morning, hair up, hills and carry on a lap top. It was a dream, nothing to think twice about it, because it was impossible. Until the manager came up to me and told me to dress up smart, come in tomorrow at 11am and if have, bring my lap top.
I wanted to jump on him and kiss him all over. How happy I was and proud! The next day, two hours before the time I woke up, to do my nails, make up, have breakfast and coffee- I never do that!Put my baby lap top into my baby red lap top bag and walked out to find it's a beautiful day, walking, and feeling a bit self important, or however I thought people with lap top bags feel like when going to work, whatever that meant- it meant a lot to me. I felt smart, intelligent, special, I could run for a president!
The whole affair lasted less than a week! That's how much it took me! Sitting alone in the office, with million phones, lap top (without internet), freezing my tiny bottom and crying myself for human face to face contact and laughter. Somebody talk to me!!!
After a week or so, I came downstairs and told my manager, apologized first, then quit the damn 'office job'. Its not me, its not for me! I did try my best but apparently I am not a person to work the phones.
Apart from learning that I cannot sell a thing over a phone, that if I hated something so much, I had b*lls to quit it, I also learned to be careful when wish for something. That there is always a possibility for it to happen which thought me how to hope. Now, every time I think 'I really really want it', I stop and think, 'Do I really?' Am almost scared for it to become the truth. Also lets me believe. And if you really what something it will happen! Gives me hope!
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