ONE HAPPY GIRL

Didn't give a shout for a long time so here is a scream. A recapture of past events, and today's.

Honestly, last few weeks have been crazy busy with social gatherings and outgoings, making empty excuses to myself how I should enjoy my full calendar and write later whilst the guilt of 'writing comes first, friends, cinema, etc afterwards' was doing my head. Then I reminded myself that I do not have guilt and should enjoy the moment and do what makes me happy, as I have always.

I made a schedule for my writing and am trying to stick to it, its a good one! I am trying to catch up on Book  Club readings and still read what I want. We went for a dinner in THE best Indian restaurant on the island with Jo, Drew, Camila & Paddy. I made the worst birthday cake for E. Heart-attack on a plate. Waste of sugar and pinabutter. Was an awesome afternoon. Had a fall out with my man and he got me flowers. My first flowers! Screamed 'surprise' at Denise's surprise birthday party which came handy as I couldn't make it to her birthday lunch the next day. At the party was too honest when speaking how a girl's brain works. Mattias was shocked.  He learned something. Attended Runway fashion show in support of my best Jo. She was fabulous! Attending the show actually made me feel something. After the shows were over, live band played-new kids with the kicks- I like. Felt that was the place I wanted to be in that moment. Went for over-due lunch with Pavli. By the way, started writing for her again. And did my first interview with her.On Tuesday last week wore my best dress and made my man fall in love with me again. Cindarella had shoes, Tea has THE dress. We went to a Thai restaurant, waaay overpriced but my prawns were evil delicious. And a drink at MedAsia afterwards. On Friday was E's birthday party. Danced my night away with Jo & Ana like in the good old days. The next day was St. Petrick's where I got the chance to wear green trousers. Watched my first game of rugby and fell in love with the sport. What took me so long! Managed to date a captain of the rugby team and still didn't know that the ball was egg shaped and that they don't score 'touch-downs', also there is an invisible line called 'bridge' or something in those lines. #10 of England's team. Yam! On Sunday was Inga's wedding. Can't believe one of us actually did it! She was beautiful and my boyfriend told me I was beautiful too. Bought me a diary.

But not all is fun & games. Yesterday was bad & ugly. A blue day for me. I felt broken, empty and blaaah. What I love the most about days like that is having that someone to turn it and make it better. S took me  again to that Indian restaurant and afterwards we just lied in bed, listening to the radio and laughing. Now, I fell in love again. Plus today, as I am off, went for an early coffee with Milja and got some much needed vitamin D which made me feel alive once again. The return of enthusiasm and will to celebrate life and its little wonders. A will to run for the president of T's club where I am the chairman too and the only member where  I campaign on taking over the world with positive thinking and kindness. Waiting for summer to come when summer is already in me!

I feel so happy today! I feel like me! I feel like I am in love and in love with the feeling. If I had wings I would fly!