GO AWAY, YOU SPIRITS THAT TEND ON MY MORTAL SOUL

No Healthy Crap-no, that was not the reason. The reason I decided to let me live is to prove another person wrong, and secretly prove to myself that I do have strong or any WILL of my own. Did the cliché-  reached over for my cigarettes, two packs of those, marched to the toilet, lifted the lid with a bang and through them devils down the toilet. I QUITE SMOKING!

I think I am doing pretty well. Might reward myself with a cigarette :) AAAAh  I miss the 'Oh-sweet-mother-of-baby-Jesus' inhalations of the smoke. Oh the precious little grey gas-so into you! I don't want to be smoke-free :(

That is the weaker me. The stronger, nicotine yearning poor creature me will try to stay true to my decision! It's the matter of letting go. Letting go of something hazardous and making room for better things. If I do manage to break this habit, then, I can do anything I put my mind on.

• How much money will I save?! Of the first three days, the saved money will invest into an awesome piggy-bank :) as for the rest will have to open a bank account, step into that 'adult' world already, where will pail my millions for shopping in Paris. 
• It's said that quite soon will look and feel much healthier. Well, we'll see! If that is to be the case, will work on my health and invest into the running shoes-start jogging. I might be skinny but think that cigarettes were one of the reasons for it, so will try to keep it up. I enjoy being a skinny bitch-while I can :) 
• Apparently the skin clears too. If so, now will have no excuse but to develop and keep daily skin-care routine.
• And the most important one-drink more, much more H2O!!!

I just want one last cigarette!