ONE IN A MILLION

I am able to love without agenda, without any reservations, without the fear of getting hurt, without the fear of loosing you and that part of me that you shall become. I can get over anything and anyone, time is always on my side. So many are too cynical, too angry, too hurt, too cool to fall head over heels. To let another swipe them of their feet. While my feet are merely touching the ground waiting for the whole body to be lifted and thrown down the waterfall.

Don't worry of my heart breaking. Because it doesn't, it only ever bends. My mind is always on my hearts side. I don't care what the captain says, I follow my heart. My ears don't hear you, your compliments, your sweet talk that will eventually undress me, but only listen to my intuition and what the tummy wants.

I am aware of what choices delivered me here. I know who's the boss of me. I know how I came to be under. But I cannot be forever down, nothing is forever. Whilst my brain will create new memories and new neuron pathways that will get stronger by each day. And when I am down for a long time, the only way is up up up. Devotion rushes out of me like lava, burning everything in site. After my love there is nothing left expect the echo of my emotions, fading slowly. I write LOVE in Caps. Plus, I have the luxury of leaving.

I know how to seduce, I studied the history of female leg. And when is breaking over me, I just lie down and cough my crooked soul onto my pillow and take time to develop another one. That is why you'll never sleep in my bed and that is why I always love as for the first time. Time without consequences. You might think me naive and  innocent, couldn't be more wrong honey.

Even if you are cold to me, its sweet for the sinner like me. You might be playing hard to get, hot & cold, it amuses me and drives me towards you. Yeah, that is my weakness, also weak arms. But I've got too much self-respect to be anyone's second choice or to stand seeing through you while you are incapable of making a decision, polite inconsideration of my future with you. I don't have time, or patience for a man of that sort. That's the darkest side of my heart and that is my defensive mechanism which I am not planning to put down. Although I am too honest in my self-acceptance to have any walls or prejudice for the next one to come and meet my open gates. 

All of the time I have a feeling that I am meant to do something extraordinary and I choose you to acquire. You should be a lucky one.

I am very lucky to be able to love again and again. I am truly blessed.