The blank truth is that I am twenty and have no idea about life. I see, I hear, I feel but do not know how. I do not now how to balance. And seeing, makes me believe that most probably I will never ever manage to balance. Balance things in life.Chinese laundry for me. Love, work, school, pain, happiness, End of Thinking Capacity.
For the record, I do not see balance as success in all the aspects of life I am engaging in that specific moment. I see balance as a simple harmony of all the aspects. However, harmony to me equals to stress-free time.
Lately, I picked men out of my life. Leaving me only to care for my work. Caring allows that something to have the undeniable opportunity to throw you off track. At this moment in me life I do not wish to improve my 'career' but my private life. Stress and exhaustion from work do not live me enough energy to do the things that do make me happy. This is what I mean when I say I would never learn how to balance!
I think this all is happening because I live by the believe 'who angers you controls you'. I am not ready to be controlled, I do not want to surrender, no matter what. I want to live, to breath.
Hard-headiness would be my biggest flaw. I like flaws. They are human-like. I won't quite but till the last atom of my energy will I try to balance.
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