Friday, October 28, 2011

OCTOBER, I LOVE YOU


I am so glad to be living in the world where there are Octobers.

When we were children, the beginning of the fall meant a new start. A fresh start. Clean cut. School begins and we are there making the same promises and resolutions. It meant, seeing friends, favorite teachers and not so favorite. It meant, we were a year older, a year more important, a year closer. We were so excited.

But now, now is the end of something, summer? Going back to the routine, melancholy, grey, cold mornings, work, lonely evenings and boredom. Winter- nothing to look forward to. Collecting summer regrets, reflecting, going back, always analyzing. Too much time.

I love it! Boots, my favorite boots that are made for walking are feeling that wet ground beneath my feet again. I can be myself again, striped of the summer enthusiasm and euphoria. I can relax, I don't feel tired anymore. The Mondays feel like morning me. It's all in sink. The stillness and quietness, rain drumming against the windows. Heaviness, yet I am light.

Big handbags and cozy jampers. My leather jacket. Teas. Flavors filling the air, and few drops of lemon juice drowning in honey, perfect temperature. Drinking it, slowly, evenly, under a soft blanket and lost in a book. Blacky at my feet, impersonating my 'personal sun'. Candles and aromatic oils. Taking baths just to warm up. Movie nights and favorite TV show marathons. Snuggling with the beloved, because it is not too hot anymore.

I love Octobers leaving in me in yearn of a hug. One of those-pick-me-up-off-my-feet-squeeze-me-tight-spin-me-around-hurt-my-tummy-but-still-make-me-smile-leaving-me-breathless-giving-me-butterflies-making-me-giggle-stupidly kind of hug.

Dreams.


Thursday, October 27, 2011

I WANT WHAT I WANT


I want the impossible,
that which is imaginable
and conceptually plausible,
yet completely unattainable.

I want to access
that which is inaccessible.
I want to envision
that which is inconceivable.

In a word,
I want the absurd.

I want to experience
something that's magical
and completely impractical,

to climb the insurmountable,
to prove up the unreasonable
as a preposterous truth.

I want what we all want,
what each of us pine for
and fitfully whine for.

I want you,
and to know, in the end,
that you want me to

-Unknown-

'I want a soul-mate who will sit me down, shut me up, tell me ten things I don't already know and make me laugh...turn me on.' -Henry Rollin

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

CURRENTLY


  • Currently, I am happy!
  • Finally got my life back on track, working, out and about. Leaving home for a reason and got from somewhere to come back.
  • Not sleeping well, at all!
  • Made a habit of getting at round 4am and pigging out from a fridge! What's that about?! Mum's genes probably.
  • Got invited to a US Marine Annual Ball (or something in those lines) at Radison Hotel next week. Very excite! It's gonna be challenging. Behaving in a long dress and limiting the access to the open bar. A social situation where I am not completely comfortable or maybe I am (will find out) and an opportunity to meet new people while dancing like there's no tomorrow. Hopefully will enjoy myself. Thanks Jo :)
  • This Friday, made it a mission to attend the 'That swing thing' party. Wish to succeed.
  • Haven't done any writing in over a month, bothered yet not doing anything about it. It will come to me.
  • Obsessed with new Florence and Machine single 'Shake it out'
  • Ok, I am really bothered that I didn't write anything! It's not that I do not have any inspiration it is that I enjoy procrastinating better. Shame!
  • Had a wicked dream, about my all family being in a prison, missing a flight to Barcelona because a male friend was putting on make up intersected with some action from 'Fast & Furious'- really! But it was so detailed! And yet do not see any connection with the wake world.
  • Gonna meet Pizda Power girls on Sunday. I miss them so much!
  • Aurora left to UK for forever and now have no more 'Gelato' and 'I don' giv a shit' friend. Hope she's fine and happy. Surrounded with grass, cool/sexy people and loads of rain.
  • What else...? I'm just happy :)
  • Wish would wake up an hour before work (even if I am working at noon) and have some Tea time, but too lazy.
  • Weather is changing. Every day a surprise.
  • Ah! Almost forgot! Discovered my favorite new bar in Malta after 6 long years on the rock! And its close to my crib. Finally a cozy hang out.
  • Still watching news due to not understanding German.
  • Using eye-shadow. Like a real girl.
  • Had a mini shopping therapy and am richer for two pair of shoes! Love being a girly girl and so easily fascinated by unimportant things.
  • Big plans this weekend. Looking forward to it.
  • Being an explorer.
  • Planning a Halloween cocktail party. Thinking of costumes...any ideas?

Hope you are enjoying your week too and that you are happy people.
Love and laugh!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Thursday, October 6, 2011

COOL KIDS CAN'T DIE


Basically, this week wasn’t as productive as I remember some were, haven’t read anything interesting either so I’ll tell of my FIRST’s this week. Yeah! They were four of those.

On Sunday, if that counts for this week. I went Ratatatata on my friends. I went paintball! Yeah, I did! Beside the poor organization, dull play ground, cheating Maltese kids, an almost fight with the same kids, Drew making me dance for my life, sour muscles and 100 degrees weather, was actually a lot of fun. As I never played it before, not even saw a game, my team was first to go. Scared! A lot! But, once I got out there, and was under the open fire, hiding for my life and trying to kill the enemies, I wasn’t that bad! Kinda proud of myself!

When everybody got hungry, trusty, and when girls had to use the powder room (as there were only trees to be watered) we decided to go to Mdina, Fontanela for some cake and coffee. Eight of us, here to say, foreigners, had an amazing talk and more than a few laughs. Highly intellectually charged conversations where Danny wouldn’t shut up, without concluding any of them. We were thinking of entering a pub-quiz where partial answers were allowed and the prize was to be a lot of Gunnies pints. It was one of those spontaneous four hour hang outs after which we’ve invented inner jokes of the group. I love those! Somehow, we just clicked and enjoyed the pointless debate. A perfect Sunday.

Yesterday, the other three FIRST’s played out. First FIRST happened at round 5pm when Mum and me attended our first Book-Club meeting. Met few nice ladies and decided on the book and the next meeting, which will be in Lena’s apartment. Which is really nice, we’ll have meetings around each other’s homes, discussing a book, having snacks, wine, tea…you know, like in the movies. It may sound boring to some, but I’ve always wanted to be a part of the Book Club, or any Club for that matter. Usually they require membership or you to be a gentleman. So I decided to go with the Book Club.

The meeting took place in a Book Shop and Lena was on about how they need more people to sort the books out, put them in order after a working day, keep track and other things that need to be done in the book-shop, I guess. So, I decided to VOLUNTEER! I’m going to give back to the community, in my idea of heaven- a book store. I’m so happy, and once again, proud!

After the meeting and a date with Mum, I proceeded to Jo’s. She helped me about some art thingy that I didn’t know a thing about, when Drew came back from work. I was happy to see him until he made me waste two hours of my life that I will never get back! He made me watch some TV show, something, that it was so boring I was thinking of taking my eyes out and shoving them in my ears, so I wouldn’t be able to see or hear! But, he did the last FIRST of this week so far, and that is why he is forgiven.

Due to laziness and lack of money, on my part, we decided to stay in and he’ll cook for us. He made…wait for it…a…MACARONI & CHEESE!!!!! I only saw bad mothers on TV make it for their children, but I never tried it, or saw it live! Excitement! It tasted exactly how it looked, exactly how I expected it to taste. But then, to gross Drew out, I covered it with Soya sauce. Try that Drew! Jo wasn’t any batter, she mixed it with a kilo of ketchup. Delicious dinner! Finally I know now why does macaroni & cheese stick to the kids faces and hair so easily!

A good week so far, might even go out tonight and dance in celebration!

P.S. There are no cigarette machines in whole city of Mdina! Do get some on the way in! I wish somebody told me that.

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