THIS ANSWERS THAT QUESTION

He became this man. Tall and strong, cynical and broken.

She thought, he let life make him that way. Coward.

He only saw her the way she was in front of him, and measured her to all that he had lost.

She was ready to give him anything he wanted. A leg, a breast. Kindness and patience.

He didn't ask. He was undecided-empty. He didn't seek-he didn't find.

She didn't even get a chance to give him all that was left of her.

He was arrogant. Harder than hell.

She was sweeter then heaven.

He knew.

She was young.

He chose reality. His truth was better than theirs,or he thought.

She will be loved.

He fucked it up. He wasn't brave as he was at the start. Shame for his defeat.

She moved on.

She believed in hope.

She forced a patient smile.

1+1=2

I don't know much about the world. I don't know much about the life. Business doesn't interest me. Finances and prestige bore me. Politics annoy me. Praying to any God is foreign to me. War sadness me. Pain hurts me. I don't know how you became this man.

But I know that one plus one is two. I know that happiness is available seven days a week. I know that bells are loud. I know that mirror is truthful. I know that twilight is blind. I know that I only exist in my head. I know I run away. I know I represent sins. I know passion. I know fantasy and I know madness. I know sadness too. I know there is a story in my head, somewhere. I know I am supposed to go places. I know I have to let little people grow. I know that another kiss is all it takes. Another kiss is all I need. I know that serendipity happens. Drinking alone suits me well. When I am happy, I think it's forever. I know I differ in hundred ways for what you see me to be. I know that who ever makes me laugh has every chance of seducing me. I know you have scars. I know I am basorexic. I know that new beginnings are often disguised in painful endings. I know if I can dream it, I can do it. I know I can't save you.

I know Alice is sarcastic, immune. Sophia is emotional and I, I already am, I always was and I still have time to be.

CURRENTLY

• Don't want to deal with the things that are left unsaid. So, talk to me.
• ESPRESSO!
• Loving work and people.
• First time felt happy for other and that left me feeling lucky. What?!
• Having a SP. And a Retard.
• Learning self-discipline. My mind is my own. My will is my own.
• Am not lying about myself no matter what the cost.
• Definitely know what I want and won't settle. Addicted to love!
• I matter. You matter. So I became.
• Been called a 'woman' - not yet, darling.
• Loving the low number of my days.
• My hand is so tinny in his.
• Making him smile and laugh.
• Believing in kisses. A lot of kisses.
• Apparently don't know a thing about Quatar. Still sleeping tight.
• Possessing a quilt that actually snuggles back :)
• Words coming out of my mouth that I thought would never utter.
• Being aware of my wings, my smile, and my energy. Kinda like a candle, if you will.
• Getting a mini heart-attack each time I pass M&S. Xmas trees in the window shop!!!!!!!!!!!!
• Still annoyed that I haven't written nothing!... or controversial, to me at least.Oh, well! Lazy bitch!
• Decided what is going to be my next investment. Hint-last thing I solely invested, was a cocktail shaker!Oh, the hard life!
• Planning a spring trip to France with Milja. It's going to be nothing less than Epic!
• Internally euphoric about this stage of my life that will never repeat itself. No responsibility to a thing or a soul. Enjoying it while I can coz I know one day I'll be a mother.
• It's a fine romance, but it left me so undone.
• SP asked me what is it I worry about. My muse told me - worry of the possibility that the world might run out of Nutella. Couldn't bring myself to say it aloud. Still a child, still got it! :) Not small, though.
• I'm losing my favorite game-you're losing your mind, again.